认命

08/07/2010

上个星期，越洋的电话说，厚礼姐她进医院了，原因是胆管阻塞，通个管就会没事。

挨了几天睁着眼的晚上，以为没事了，现在又说，是块了不起的瘤。要不是最近雨下得狠，雷打得多，当场是要给这平地一声雷劈昏了。

我想起许多许多，突然间消失得无影无踪的。老公公、老呜呜、姑婆、刺刺、毛毛、花花。

好可怕。

近来晚上常看到白色的蝴蝶。我喜欢蝴蝶，但不喜欢这样的巧合。我不是预言家，这种启示，我看不懂。

就算看得懂，也未必会信。我才不要认命。

希望你也是。

Last week, an oversea phone call informed that Ms Lavish Gift was admitted to hospital. The reason was cholestasis, which can be solve with a small surgery, they said.

Then, after some sleepless night, when things are thought to be settled, they said it's periampullary carcinoma. What a hueg surprise.

I recalled a lot. Those include the dearest people and things that I wouldn't want to lose.

How horrifying.

Keep on seeing white butterflies at night lately. I like butterflies, but I don't like the coincidence. I'm not a prophet that can read such oracle.

Even if I know, I would probably choose not to believe. I wouldn't resign to fate.

And I hope you are the same.