Sunday, January 9, 2011

方向

09/01/2011

和友人几乎聊了个通宵,回家免不了挨几句牢骚才能爬上床。

记得,友人问我,平时工作时间以外都做些什么。

重组了许久,吃吃地说了,脸上抽搐着几分惭愧。之后讪讪的笑着,不自然的程度到了自己也能察觉的地步。

除了不断地在电脑面前做食指的运动,除了偶尔生疏地拨弄那几条吉他弦,,除了闲来找朋友吃个便饭,我再想不到自己做过什么事情了。

这算是没方向感吗?怎么我的日子是累得毫无方向的。



我摆脱了一个为我订身打造的地图。是一个什么都好,唯独是,我不喜欢的地图。

现在,如果我不需要这个地图,我又该用什么方法达到我的目的地呢。

Friday, January 7, 2011

King of Anything -- Sara Bareilles

07/01/2011


Keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table
While I look outside
So many things I’d say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

You’ve got opinions, man
We’re all entitled to ‘em, but I never asked
So let me thank you for your time, and try not to waste anymore of mine
And get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe, but I’m not drowning
There’s no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent, all full of good intent
Swear you know best
But you expect me to jump up on board with you
And ride off into your delusional sunset

I’m not the one who’s lost with no direction
But you’ll never see

You’re so busy making maps with my name on them in all caps
You got the talking down, just not the listening

And who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

All my life I’ve tried to make everybody happy
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it’s my turn to decide

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

Let me hold your crown, babe.

Monday, January 3, 2011

对不起,没关系

30/12/2010

“不是每句對不起、都能換來一句沒關係”

在非死不可看到这句话。也许是因为最近对不起听了太多,也说了太多,这句话一个照面就牢牢打入心底。

小时候总是被教导:错了,就要道歉;听了道歉,就要大大方方地原谅。道歉和原谅,似乎都是天经地义的,不过是简单的三个字。

当对错从糖果慢慢演变成更复杂的情节,赫然发现,理所当然并不能和简单画上等号。人始终无法舍弃感性的一面。道歉不再是轻而易举的事,有时关乎面子,有时关乎尊严,有时关乎原则。甚至有时候,道歉不只是谁对谁错的事。

对不起和没关系,可以是很无关紧要的,毫无意义的。

但如果发现自己真的做错了,无论怎么难受,无论别人接受与否,无论有没有意义,一定要道歉,并且,要真心诚意。

因为,要发自内心地说一句没关系,远比道歉困难。

这么容易的话,真好。

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

最近

28/12/2010

隔了三个星期。

最近的生活有点难以言喻,总觉得什么都来得快去得快。不是因为做什么都匆匆忙忙,而是,很多事情,在还没来得及习惯之前就要全盘改变了。

我该说,这是我适应能力的问题吗?

还是说,我还在依恋着,依赖着以往的生活作息?

我的周围,感觉有点梦幻。

好像不是好事。



不过,天塌下来,还是得笑。

Monday, December 6, 2010

Oh NO!!

06/12/2010

在家里煮面的时候,因为把不一样的面用同样的时间来煮,结果统统搞糊了。之后用来炒,都落得个凄惨落魄的下场。

现实就是这样,一个错,就是一坨清不完的屎。

这样也不错,连烦恼的心情也没了。